Meditations from the heart

No one does good, no not one.”~ Romans 3:12

I always considered myself a good girl. From a young age I always loved to please others and liked following the rules. Growing up my mom had high expectations and I strived to make her happy. It was never attainable yet I still tried. Then I went to church and learned even more rules. Rules at home, rules at church I was always striving to be that little girl who always got it right. It was a reciepe for disaster. I found myself falling short. Yet still in my mind I thought I was good.

Last year I attended a Christmas Eve service at Parkview Church and God whispered to me. “You are not good.” Along my journey God has whispered many things to me. Most of them healing, enlightening and inspiring but every once in awhile I hear a whisper that makes me feel like I hit a brick wall. Afterall my whole identity had been wrapped up in being a good girl. In following the rules. In living in black and white. In judging the world around me. When God whispered this to me I began to question myself then why am I trying so hard to do the right thing all the time. It was as if a veil had been lifted and I saw myself and every one around me with new eyes.

None of us is good and on our own merit we never will. We can strive but we will always fall short. Ill admit I still love following the rules its just how I am but I do feel God is helping me day by day to let go of my mentality of being right and pleasing others. Its just a little step but I think it’s a step in the right direction towards freedom.💜