Meditations from the heart

One of the hardest things for me was how I was received when I returned. It was the main reason I didn’t want to return and what caused me the most pain. I had a friend and I really loved her. She was my work bestie. She was one of the best parts of my day. She was one of my favorite people and she knew excatly why I returned. The day I returned she stood at my door shaking her head and finger at me. My heart sunk a few levels that day. Things would never be the same. Gone were the days where she’d embrace me in a hug and say my bestie. In fact I noticed while I was away she had enquired a new bestie. My heart sank even deeper. What really hurts is when your favorite person no longer treats you the same. I had to walk through a season of forgiveness. I’d see her day in and day out and I would silently watch her as I just held my hurting heart in my hands. It was something I had to face but I didn’t face it alone. In quietness and strength I showed up each day and slowly my work began to heal my heart, through the love I gave and received through the children. They are the balm from Gods healing heart and in time I forgave and in time it hurt less but I never felt the same and that’s a sadness I still carry in my heart. ❤️