Meditations from the heart

Forgiveness : one of the hardest things to practice yet one of the things we need to practice over and over day after day. Come on we are all fallible human beings living among fallible human beings. Most times intentional yet you feel the hurt. A short tone. A roll of the eyes seem so harmless yet you never know what stories people quietly carry beneath their smile. And these are the unintentional hurts. Can I even began on the true atrocities that destroy the human spirit. Rape Murder Racism Adultery and the list could go on and on. If you cant forgive these smaller pains how will you ever forgive the big ones. Surely never on your own. When I look to God can I even do the things He requires of me. Things like not holding a grudge. Sitting in the pain. Not fighting back. Not making them feel my pain. You’ve been there you know how impossibly hard that is when everything inside of you is screaming I want to hurt you back. Can you sit in that messy hellish emotion and let it pass and give it to God? Can you really give it to God? Can you sit there when someone is yelling at you and not yell back? Can you separate that person from their sin against you and say as Jesus did Father forgive them for they know not what they do. It is humanly difficult but not impossible. It requires surrender and acknowledgement that we our Gods and God has our back and will settle the score the way He chooses to. It requires letting go. Letting go of our rights. It requires giving God your hurt and pain. It requires letting God heal your heart and treating that person who hurt you with kindness. Its not a one time deal. It’s a process and sometimes you have to forgive over and over even for years depending on your pain. Its not an easy choice but it is the right choice. Possibly one of the hardest choices of your life yet one of the most healing loving choices you can make for yourself to restore peace into your life.