Meditations from the heart

Father forgive them for they don’t know what they’re doing”~Luke 23:34

What does forgive them for they know not what they do really mean anyways? A few years back God began to whisper this to my heart. I went through a challenging time in my life where someone in my life struggled with anger. Anger has always been a hard thing for me because of the people pleasing narrative that ran through my mind. It said if people are mad at you then they don’t like you. So for most of my life I had lived my life this way. Ill make you happy and you wont be mad at me and will like me and Ill feel good about myself. But then I met someone who just was angry. It didn’t matter what I said or did to try to make them happy they still got angry. They had a problem and I didn’t know how to fix it. I was pretty miserable. It was then that God began to whisper Forgive them for they know not what they do. I really began to truly understand for the first time what this means. This person just couldn’t see that they had a problem. No matter how many times I would say ‘ you have an anger problem’ their reply was ‘ I don’t have an anger problem.’ It was a trying time that I still cannot forget. As humans we all have our vices we struggle with and we just cannot see how our troubles trouble others. I’ve had my fair share of my own troubles that now I am certain I brought trouble to others but sometimes you don’t realize that until you feel the pain of it. So I began to pray and pray and pray. Father forgive them for they know not what they do. It was an enlightening time for sure. To forgive those who are clueless to their trouble and to realize that my own troubles bring troubles to others. Its one thing to pray Father forgive them but quiet another to practice it myself. To forgive someone who is clueless is to do as Jesus said to Peter. When Peter asked how many times should I forgive my brother. Jesus said 77 times. Wow that’s a lot of times. It means we keep forgiving and forgiving. Its something we just cant do without Gods spirit inside us. This time in my life has now passed and Im in a peaceful season but I am grateful for this season where I learned about forgiveness and how it changed my heart.💜